Husband Says He Doesn't Love Me But We Still Make Love.

by Jen
(OH)

I have been going through the hardest three months of my life since my husband told me he doesn't love me and I discovered his affair.

This situation has changed my life in such a way that I have given my life to Jesus. I have asked God to change me and I'm in awe of how he is working on me. God has delivered me from the things that were hindering my relationship with Him and I'm grateful for this awakening I have.

I love my husband unconditionally and I have forgiven him. I made the commit to my marriage and I will continue to stand until my marriage is restored. I have been praying non-stop for my husband's deliverance. I pray he comes to know Jesus and seek forgiveness. My marriage is under severe attack. My husband is under attack. Although he claims he doesn't love me, he still shows me affection.

We spend a lot of time together, we have attended church together several times. He has returned to our bedroom. He will go out to see the other woman and when he returns I welcome him with love. When he does return from being with her he's distant.

Then suddenly I see his mood change and from being distant to being relaxed and we will actually have a good night together. We will have stretches of when things are so great between us then the enemy increases his attack. My husband is so tormented, I can see it. One day my husband asked me why I was being so good to him, and I told him because I loved him. He made a point to tell me that he did not feel the same way I did.

I told him that was ok, because God's love is enough for me and I know God has a plan for us. He responded with anger, confusion, guilt. I watched my husband go through every emotional change in a matter of minutes. At the end, his heart became softened and he was back to being nice. Later that week while were in bed, he told me he'll never stop loving me. He actually repeated it twice. I didn't respond, I just receive it as a sign that God is working.

Since then it's been peaks and valleys but I know that the closer I get to my breakthrough the harder the enemy attacks us. So I will continue to walk Faith and wait for God to return my husband to me.

This past weekend I was under attack and let the enemy get a foothold. My sister who is a believer and a stander for her marriage helped be refocus my thoughts and energy. Holy Spirit spoke to me through her and I am now back on track. I will continue to fast and pray without ceasing for my marriage.

Please keep us in your prayers.